Sometimes I push myself. I suppose everyone with Fibromyalgia does at times. I push and I hurt. I push to get things done. I also push because I feel like I am getting weaker. My muscles are getting weaker. It would seem that using my body more would make me stronger. Like exercising a muscle.
It does not seem to work that way though. I push and I am down for sometimes days. Sleep is my main relief. But if I have to stay in bed because of pushing myself, did I really accomplish anything? I am conflicted about this. If I used my body and felt better like I did as a young woman the choices would be much clearer.
I had already decided to speak to the doctor about Physical Therapy to try to keep my strength. It will have to be after the wheel chair things are finished. I hate this weak feeling. I hate Fibromyalgia.